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ch00ch

Country: United States
State: Connecticut
Birthday: 10/28/1983

Interests: Drumming, marching, writing (this site will not express this ability for the most part), drawing, drinking, AIM: themadyakreturns, toying with people's minds (i AM a psych major ya know), conquering the world...
Expertise: sleep (when it happens)
Occupation: Student

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Thursday, May 05, 2005

yes... i could begin my 15-20 page paper...
instead i sit here staring at the screen because i don't even know what to write it about.
i'm tired... and i definitely do not want to be sitting here for another 3 hours. on the brighter side of things... i'm here (north) instead of chase where i used to work on thursdays at this time. so... i didn't have to brave the record low temperature for this date.
i think i'll play some mah jong or something...

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Sunday, May 01, 2005

	again... i'm left with nothing to do on a sunday. tami got "called into work." :) i'd say there's a 50/50 chance she's tellin the truth on that one. haha i really have no interest in being awake right now. goin back to bed.
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despite the amount of water i drank... i still woke up hung over (as i expect porter will in 8 hrs or so).
had a mediocre day.
hung out with jackie... got vitamins got wendy's. it made me feel much better.
spent a lotta time with matt and emily. got coffee with em... picked matt up from work... later drove w/ matt to bring em and jen to the clubs. didn't pick them up with matt... i was busy doing... "other things."
watched old school. still a good movie.
tired... gotta be up soon. sorry i woke u up, tami.
i'm dl'ing sum 41's "chuck" album. system of a down's "byob" is a good song.
i refuse to worry about people, or their problems from now on. i gain nothing from it.
i've about had it... there's a tool song on ARES who's genre is labeled "pop." gimme a break.

I don't want to be hostile. I don't want to be dismal. But I don't want to rot in an apathetic existance either. See I want to believe you, and I want to trust and I want to have faith to put away the dagger.

But you lie, cheat, and steal. And yet I tolerate you. Veil of virtue hung to hide your method while I smile and laugh and dance and sing your praise and glory. Shroud of virtue hung to mask your stigma as I smile and laugh and dance and sing your glory while you lie, cheat, and steal. How can I tolerate you.

Our guilt, our blame, I've been far too sympathetic. Our blood, our fault. I've been far too sympathetic.

I am not innocent. You are not innocent. Noone is innocent.

I will no longer tolerate you Even if I must go down beside you. Because, Noone is innocent.
- MJK (1993)

gnight.

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Saturday, April 30, 2005

	brian just went to bed. people are being loud outside. i'm sober. goodnight.
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it's not often i get drunk... but when i do... i take note.

i'm listening to depressing music. i don't know why. it feels right. audiioslave- be yourself... sum 41- pieces. those are just two for right now. i'm listening to them loud enough so that i hope they are audible through my wall... cuz the people on the other side are pretty annoying from time to time.

*sigh* i know i shouldn't drink. it's almost time for move ins. i haven't been running as much as i know i should. once a day isn't good enough for where i am. being drunk is like... the extra kicker right now. i can't be that drunk though... i'm still typing fine. maybe i'm just buzzed or something.

i'm trying to sober up. i just drank 2 bottle of water. yay soberness. it's funny how drinking excessive water can make you feel more abnormal than drinking.

i'm talkin to carl and brian right now. carl i as the radio station in the production studio part. he's making sound effects. it's 237 am. he agreed he's crazy and i told him that word doesn't encapsulate what he is right now. again... he agreed. what's weird is i kinda feel like walking across campus to accompany him in his madness.

brian is telling me he loves me. that's reassuring to some extent. not to others. his medicine isn't working and he can't sleep. i don't want to get to that point in my life where i need medicine to calm pain so that i can sleep. i fear i'm closer than most would expect. who knew marching could do this to someone? to all those who view it as not being a sport... fuck you all... i'd like to see you do it.

i watched cold mountain before with matt... and kinda lisa. she left prematurely. yeah it's a chick flick... bite me. it's a good movie.

now i'm talking to viv as well. despite not having talked to her for 3 yrs it's rather consoling in some weird sadistic, confusing way.

llistening to something corporate - north again.

i'm going to stop typing. i'm having trouble filling blank space with thoughts right now. gonna go drink some more water and talk things out with people.

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